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One of the useful things in my brain is its logic circuits. I can be very logical in certain situations. But I also have a very whacked emotional side that can go own its own little trips. I've found it useful to throw the logic into one character and the emotion into another and then pit them against each other in a buddy type relationship. Makes for good arguments and great banter. Also shows just how whacked my brain can get.

I have more than one kind of logic. One part of me is very skeptical of everything, but can be convinced of things that seem whacky to other people if it's given the right evidence. I call him Alex. Though when he's in a grumpy mood, he doubts everything to some degree or another.

I guess I am very balanced, really. Kinda. Balanced in a wonky way, like a tightrope walker that slipped and can only stay balanced if hunched over, but balanced. Emotions I can't deal with get automatically shunted away to some dark corner of my mind, and I have The Filter which examines the things I wish to say and do, and either approves or denies them. And I'm quiet and still have a tendency to live inside my mind to varying degrees. Which allows me to act balanced, even if in truth things are all wonky. If I let those shunted emotions gather in the corner too long, they can build up pressure and be unhealthy.

There was a period of 2 or 3 years where I was feeling a lot of stress continually, and shunting emotions constantly into their dark corner, behind a dam, or into a pressure cooker (whichever metaphor you like best), doing almost nothing to relieve the pressure and deal with the emotions. Then I found I was a multiple mind and things got worse, oddly. They began manifesting as brand-new, never-before-seen phobias that went contrary to my whole life (I've never been afraid of the dark, even as a child, but during this I was having bouts of intense nyctophobia, fear of darkness).

It eventually got so bad that a little over 2 years ago, those emotions *exploded* in my brain and I had a psychotic episode wherein I was throwing things around the room breaking them, screaming, and I tried to throw myself down the stairs. It did major and possibly permanent damage to my already-damaged mind, and one of my Aspects has been in hiding ever since. My passion for romance has disappeared because of it. I was a highly passionate soul, writing all kinds of love poems and falling deeply in love. Some of the stress-causers and the eventual trigger for the episode were related to my romantic life, so maybe it's no surprise. But I went from writing love poems every week to now, I can't even remember the last time I wrote a love poem. Hell, the only poetry I can write anymore is nonsense and humor poetry.

The Zone! Oh, tell me of a writer who doesn't worship The Zone. When you can find it, it is bliss. when you find it and are interrupted, it could be cause some crime ending in -cide. Love The Zone :D

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Second person? You use a lot of 'you's? Interesting choice and a difficult challenge. I'm a bit boring in that my natural voice is point of view third person. I like to ride around in my characters' heads.

In fiction, I am third person omniscient selective. But, oddly, in nonfiction I use 2nd person (lots of you's). I think it's from blogging, I tend to blog like I'm talking directly to the audience. After she told me about the 2nd person thing, I started noticing myself doing it in blogging. Blogging and nonfiction are the only times I use 2nd person.

Overly verbose? I've been accused of writing hyperbole. But I'm proud of the way I write. I know it is at least decent. Perhaps you should ask someone for some feedback? It can be very useful.

I have tried finding people who will give me positive feedback, but it's hard. I only like feedback from people I know will be gentle and kind with me, because negatively-given criticism triggers my defense mechanisms to go into "bully alert."

Indeed.