Why do I do crazy things like inviting other folks to give me prompts, or writing in foreign languages, or trying poetic forms that aren't even designed for the English language? Because after decades of writing poetry, that's how far out I have to go before it gets hard even occasionally. I want to keep pushing the envelope and expanding the range of what I can do. Sure, it's nice to relax and write a ballad. I do a lot of free verse too. But it's exciting to explore how poetry can handle a long narrative, or to try a new form. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
As I like to put it, "If you're not making any mistakes, you're not learning, you're coasting."
November 13 2013, 11:44:07 UTC 7 years ago
Yay!
November 13 2013, 19:27:05 UTC 7 years ago
November 14 2013, 02:49:36 UTC 7 years ago
Me and computer programming, or writing, or other such things. My mind is literally about half the competency it used to have. Sometime flashes of brilliance and productivity come up, but they're rare. Things I want to complete... just don't. Even when I know I can work on them.
So the idea of learning a whole new interface (Eclipse for Java, so I can work on a mod for Minecraft) on my own intimidates me (plus there's the MCP toolkit that enables said modding). There are so many details, and I don't have any lesser projects (non-Minecraft apps) that would require the same tool or set of tools, so I can learn them properly. These days I'm actually upset that I disliked Java so much before.
Then there's the recalled-memory recounting of the Anunnaki War, which has stalled just at the point where the war got started offworld. For various reasons, I haven't been able to continue on it.
Sometimes the only thing that works is to go back to the most basic things, and build them up again. But you have to know where to start. And you have to trust your mistakes, which is so very, very difficult when you know you were better than that before.
O_O
November 14 2013, 02:51:36 UTC 7 years ago