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What PTSD Is
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cissa From: cissa Date: March 24th, 2013 01:00 am (UTC) (Link)
I am convinced that if i grow old, I will be living on the street and rely on a cat to catch me pigeons to eat. (This is based on a Doris Lessing story that obviously had a serious impact.)

My husband tells me that's crazy... but I remain convinced. I just don't believe anyone has my back, and that's PTSD talking.
ysabetwordsmith From: ysabetwordsmith Date: March 25th, 2013 02:19 am (UTC) (Link)


What bothers me is the tendency to skid along the spectrum from "good world" to "bad world." PTSD is, at heart, an adaptation for survival in a very dangerous situation, that becomes a problem when it can't shut off in a less-dangerous situation. But sometimes the world really is a mess, sometimes people will hurt you and nobody will care if you die. That's a bad thing. It's even worse when people lie about it and say there's help when there isn't, or when the "help" actually makes things worse. Because then, if there's already a disconnect between the events in the world and the perception of the world, that gets worse when the false information doesn't match the events.

I want to live in a world that doesn't randomly break people. What I actually have is a world that's so erratic in its performance that trying to predict it is like trying to predict whether the psycho boyfriend is in the mood for flowers or fists. That's a problem.
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