I have some people that I value very deeply. Unfortunately right now most of them live in other states or countries. Most of the local contacts I currently have are casual. I've had very close local relationships in the last decade but none of them have lasted.
There's a very old tendency for me to blame myself, because it took a while for me to bother building social skills, and I still don't think mine are great. But when I look objectively at the actions, I think the quality of people in my vicinity has rarely been great and is fairly low now. They do shit worse than what I used to get nagged at for doing, only there's nobody nagging them. There are awesome people in the world; they just seem to be rare and spread very widely. That's frustrating.