October 9th, 2018

polychrome

Poem: "A Double-Edged Sword"

This poem is spillover from the September 4, 2018 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by prompts from [personal profile] pantha and [personal profile] lone_cat. It also fills the "magical / soul bond" square in my 7-31-17 card for the Cottoncandy Bingo fest and the "separation & reunion" square in my 1-31-18 Romantic card for the Valentines Day Bingo fest. This poem has been sponsored by Anthony & Shirley Barrette. It belongs to the Calliope thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

WARNING: This poem contains scenes that some readers may find disturbing. Highlight to read the warnings, some of which are spoilers. This is the visit to the bondworker in which Calliope tries to sever the bond with Vagary, but it turns out so horrible that she can't go through with it. It includes an unbalanced relationship, anticipatory grief, Calliope is completely clueless about how much the impending separation hurts Vagary already, anxiety, Vagary doesn't want to break the bond but is tired of being treated like a burden so agrees to it anyway, complications of treatment due to bond shape, graphic discussion of risks, bond manipulation is itself a risky profession to be in, graphic description of bond severance, extreme pain, unbalanced perceptions, guilt, selfishness, lots of screaming, Calliope decides that this is torture and calls it off, Vagary freaks out but is ultimately willing to repair the bond, self-blame, self-loathing, they're saying some really awful things to each other today, asking for help and getting it, medically necessary narcotics, because OW, brain fog, the bond is acting like an abused dog and snapping at them every time they touch, but won't let them get far apart either, caregiving, and other misery. Readers who have an unbalanced relationship, history of abuse, or sensitivity to rejection may find this extra stressful. If these are touchy topics for you, please consider your tastes and headspace before deciding whether this is something you want to read. It's a huge plot point, though, so skipping it would leave a gap.

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Tuesday Yardening

Today is sunny, breezy, and warm. I went out to dig up and throw away about 18 mushrooms from the south lot. :/ I noticed what looked like tiny pumpkins growing beyond the hedge. My partner Doug went out and picked up one of them. Possibly it is more of a tiny acorn squash, as we've eaten many of those and thrown the seeds on the grass wall. I may go out later and look for more.

EDIT 10/9/18 -- I went back out and planted Giant Daffodils for Naturalizing in the prairie garden as a large patch. I saw several monarchs drifting around.

EDIT 10/9/18 -- It's a little cooler out now, but very buggy. :P I planted 5 Double Campernelle Daffodils around the maple tree between the house yard and the south lot. These are fluffy fragrant ones. I planted 5 Keizerskroon Tulips amongst the Giant Daffodils in the prairie garden. Perhaps the daffodils will discourage critters from eating the tulips. Since these are red tulips with yellow edges, they should go great with yellow daffodils. :D