April 1st, 2018


Spring Fest Bingo Card 4-1-18

Here is my card for the Spring Fest Bingo. It runs April 1-30, focusing on spring and nature.  (See all my 2018 bingo cards.)

If you'd like to sponsor a particular square, especially if you have an idea for what character, series, or situation it would fit -- talk to me and we'll work something out.  I've had a few requests for this and the results have been awesome so far.  This is a good opportunity for those of you with favorites that don't always mesh well with the themes of my monthly projects. I may still post some of the fills for free, because I'm using this to attract new readers; but if it brings in money, that means I can do more of it. That's part of why I'm crossing some of the bingo prompts with other projects, such as the Poetry Fishbowl.

Underlined prompts have been filled.  BLACKOUT 4/29/18!  \o/


UpliftingResourcesArbor Day / April 27Weatherbutterfly
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I made bingo down the O column on my Slice-of-Life Bingo Card 2-28-18

O1 (opportunity) -- "The Ones Between" (An Army of One)
O2 (communication) -- "Seen and Respected" (Clay of Life)
O3 (learn a new skill) -- "Burnt and Experienced Hands" (Polychrome Heroics: Shiv)
O4 (holding someone's hand) -- "Escape from the Loneliness" (Polychrome Heroics: Shiv)
O5 (peacemaking) -- "Willing to Share the Scary Stuff" (Polychrome Heroics: Shiv)

These are my other fills:

B2 (citrus fruit) -- "Like the Desert Wind" (The Yellow Unicorns)

N4 (curiosity) -- "Following the Trails" (Torn World)

G2 (panic attack) -- "A Horror of the Color Yellow" (The Yellow Unicorns)
G3 (stuffed animal) -- "In the Workshop of Misfit Toys" (Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer)

Jewish Communal Trauma

[personal profile] gingicat shared an article about Pesach (Passover) and the Haggadah reading.  It talks about the indoctrination of PTSD, or more precisely, transgenerational trauma which is a type of collective trauma.  Various studies have shown that the Holocaust left not just a grave psychological imprint, but also a genetic one.

This dovetails with a previous discussion about Israel's behavior in which a Jewish reader posted about how a history of persecution shapes the policies of Israel.

One of the worst effects of traumatic stress is that it fucks over your ability to adapt.  You come up with coping techniques that help you survive the trauma, but if your situation improves afterwards, then readjusting to that new circumstance is difficult or impossible.  My favorite diagram of the problem is this chart about correct distrust.  When reliability is low, trust should be low: correct distrust.  When reliability is high, trust should be high: correct trust.  The problem with traumatic stress is it destroys the ability to trust, so that as the situation improves, the person becomes under-trusting.  Then rebuilding trust becomes a difficult, tedious process that lags behind and may never regain accuracy.  It doesn't just affect the primary victim, but also everyone around them -- like, say, Palestine.  :/

I'll just throw in my Safety Tracker here, in case anyone needs a tool for measuring the objective and subjective levels of safety in their life.

Prank-Free Zone

This journal is a prank-free zone.  Today is my birthday.  (Yes, really.)  I don't need to be hypervigilant on my birthday for fear of people picking on me.  So if you need a safe place today, here it is.   

Today's Adventures

Today being my birthday, we went up to Champaign for food and shopping.  This was a half-good idea.  I wanted us to do something on my actual birthday, since the big family meal got bumped to next weekend.  But it's Easter Sunday, which meant a majority of places in town were closed.  :/  Also it snowed, a very wet sticky snow driven by a raw wind.  This was not the worst (heavier snow, torrential rain, howling wind) that I've ever had, but it was not fun to walk through.

However!  We tried out the Treehugger sandwich with mozzerella cheese, tomatoes, and basil pesto at Cracked.  It was the perfect grilled cheese sandwich for a snowy spring day: a hot, vivid green reminder of life.  :D

It took us a while to find a place to shop, the mall being closed.  But that led us to, of all places, Rural King -- where I found something I've been hunting for months.  They had deep v-neck t-shirts in various colors, for $5 each.  So I bought one of each color that I liked.  \o/  These I can wear under sweatshirts or flannels without the neck showing.  I don't know why, but modern v-necks are basically crew-necks that come to a shallow point.  They are supposed  to be a deep notch so they don't show at the collar of a shirt.   So I got black, gray, white, medium blue, turquoise, and soft purple.

Our original intent had been to revisit the Thai ice cream place for a mixed fruit ice cream, but today was totally not the day for ice cream.  :/  So we tracked down a place that had hot apple pie instead.  :D  That was awesome.  Doug got a slice of peanut butter pie for himself, which was very peanutty.

While driving around a parking lot, we spotted some waterbirds.  There were the usual Canada geese and some mallard ducks.  Then I spotted a small black duck with a light bill.  I couldn't find an exact match online, but looking at pictures, I think it may actually have been an American coot.  They look very ducklike while swimming.

We also stopped by Enchantment Alley, where I found another thing I've been hunting: a smoke bottle.  Mine is deep green with a dragon on it.  A smoke bottle is basically an ordinary bottle with one or more holes drilled in the side for ventilation, and a ring to hold a stick of incense.  You light the incense, put the ring on the unlit end, then put it in the bottle with the lit end down.  The ash all lands inside the bottle.

At Harvest Market, we picked up some asiago fresco cheese and duck eggs for making a quiche with the duck bacon, and some gourmet mushroom and swiss hamburgers for supper tonight.

All in all, it wasn't quite the trip we planned, but it turned out quite well.  :D