August 2nd, 2012

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Friendship

Here's a thoughtful post about friendship.

I have some people that I value very deeply.  Unfortunately right now most of them live in other states or countries.  Most of the local contacts I currently have are casual.  I've had very close local relationships in the last decade but none of them have lasted.  

There's a very old tendency for me to blame myself, because it took a while for me to bother building social skills, and I still don't think mine are great.  But when I look objectively at the actions, I think the quality of people in my vicinity has rarely been great and is fairly low now.  They do shit worse than what I used to get nagged at for doing, only there's nobody nagging them.  There are awesome people in the world; they just seem to be rare and spread very widely.  That's frustrating.
muse

It's Raining!

After no significant rain for a couple months, it's raining now.  We're not getting a lot, but some, and it's more than we've had in a long time.  Thanks to siege for the idea of asking the land spirits to ask the weather spirits for gentle rain.  That's what we did in our esbat last night.